L is for Life

L is for Life

I can plan. Plod along. Produce.

But life happens.

And sometimes it doesn’t happen they way I’ve imagined in my head. Does it shake me? Yes. Does it frustrate me? Definitely. Does it depress me? Sometimes.

Can I change what life has delivered? Not always. But I can decide how I react. I have control over what I do with my anger, frustration, sadness. I have control over how I treat other people and the decisions I make.

Kyle, my senior, received word yesterday that while he was offered a $9,000 yearly scholarship from ORU, it was not the $20,000 we’d been praying for. At $30,000 a year, the tuition/room/board is pretty steep. That leaves us $21,000 to come up with. For the first year.

The whole picture of Kyle’s life–past, present, and future–lies visible for God in a way I can not comprehend. I’ve seen Him spread His hand of protection over Kyle so many times. When I was held up at gunpoint five months pregnant. When Kyle dashed out in front of a car barreling down our street and our neighbor snagged the hem of his shirt. When leukemia came knocking and stayed four years.

Are we giving up? No. Today, I say, I won’t put God in a box. If He closes the door to ORU, let Him slam it hard. We will walk forward until He does.

 

Can God come up with the money another way? Absolutely. Will He? I don’t know. I’m waiting to see what He will do. And whatever He provides will be the right thing for Kyle. I choose to trust that He knows best.

Today, I am clinging to this verse: “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” (I Thessalonians 12:16-18).

11 Comments

  1. polly eckert |

    Lori,
    Psalm 146…How blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, Whose hope is in the LORD his God,
    Who made heaven and earth, The sea and all that is in them; Who keeps faith forever;
    …WHO KEEPS FAITH FOREVER!? That is our GOD.

    You are faithful, and He’s gonna keep that forever.
    Much grace,
    polly

  2. Amen to all you said. Paying for college has been a huge faith-building experience for us AND for our kids! While we had walked through some of this during our early married years, they (obviously) had not. Now we get to share with them watching the Lord provide in unusual and unexpected ways. And it helps them take ownership of believing that the Lord has a plan for their lives as they watch it unfold. Praying for direction and provision, friend!

  3. Hi Lori. At risk of sounding way too cheesy – “Sometimes I thank God, for unanswered prayers, remember when you’re talking, to the Man Upstairs, that just because he doesn’t answer, doesn’t mean he don’t care, some of God’s greatest gifts, is unanswered prayers.” – Garth Brooks
    God has a plan and it will unfold in perhaps a way you don’t expect. I know I’m not telling you anything you don’t obviously already know! Sending prayers.

  4. God will give you and Kyle the exact direction you need in this situation. For me, when I considered going to ORU, it was the timing never being right.

    I went to a workshop for prospective ORU students, and literally missed the drawing for the full-ride scholarship by one place. I won an ORU mug instead. It’s still one of my favorite mugs to this day, but it’s also my reminder that sometimes God’s answer to my questions and desires is “No.”

    There have been so many other times that it was been a resounding “Yes!”, though. Don’t lose heart – just because it seems impossible from your own perspective doesn’t mean it really is. Sometimes God puts us in impossible situations so that we know the solution came from Him and Him alone.

    If ORU is where God wants him, he will get there, no matter the obstacles. If it isn’t, though, it just means there’s something much better in store :)

  5. Prayer and hugs. God will always find a way. He has time and again in my life. And yours and your son’s lives show the same blessed grace.

  6. I love how strong you are in your faith Lori. It’s so inspiring! You’ve definitely had some challenges but God’s will be done. I pray Kyle finds God’s new direction and it’s even better than what he’d imagined for himself.

  7. Good verse and thoughts. God doesn’t give us everything we want or hope for, but our reactions to what we get are what counts in our lives. Everything things works out the way it should and we need to accept that.

    Lee
    A Few Words
    An A to Z Co-host blog

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