R is for Rest

Rest in me, says the Lord.

I’m having a hard time doing that. Hard? No, that’s not quite right. I’m a writer, let me pick a different word—a power word—a word that really describes how hard of a time I’m having.

How about impossible?

I’m having an impossible time resting in You, Lord.

My life is swirling, moving forward, requiring my time, thought and attention. I live with four people who call me wife, mother, driver, cook, laundress, teacher, counselor, organizer. On the side—is four to six hours a day really on the side?—I pour out words on the page. Trying to start a career at forty. Trying to bless others with my struggles. Trying to learn to be better, stronger, faster.

Strangled. There’s another word. Today I feel strangled. I love what I do. All of it. Otherwise, I wouldn’t do it. I have no problem quitting things I hate. If I’m being honest, I should remove cook from my list of jobs above. More like prepar-er. Or drive thru-er. Since I try to avoid the kitchen as much as possible.

Today I read Psalms 1: 1–6 (NIV).

1 Blessed is the one

who does not walk in step with the wicked

or stand in the way that sinners take

or sit in the company of mockers,

2 but whose delight is in the law of the LORD,

and who meditates on his law day and night.

3 That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,

which yields its fruit in season

and whose leaf does not wither—

whatever they do prospers.

4 Not so the wicked!

They are like chaff

that the wind blows away.

5 Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,

nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.

6 For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous,

but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.

I love verse 3. The idea of being planted by a stream that doesn’t dry up, no matter how I’m feeling or what life has thrown at me, comforts me. I am going to hold onto that today. And maybe tomorrow.

If you’re feeling strangled, desperate for rest, I pray you find The Stream and plant yourself next to Him, dig in deep, grow some roots. And let God love on you today like I’m going to let Him love on me.

Lord,

Thank you for knowing just what I need. Every day. Every hour. Every minute. Don’t let me miss out on any of Your blessings because I’m so busy not resting that I miss them. 

9 Comments

  1. Oh Lori, man do I know that feeling. Then came Wednesday . . . my life came to a screeching hault. Like Crissy would say, “don’t know which is worse the skittering or the haulting”.

    I do know this, in whatever situation we find ourselves,God is there and He longs for us to take a breath, step back, readjust our focus, and come to Him–with nothing in our hands–just a heart of love that desires to please Him. Spend however long it takes to receive His refreshing, His grace, and His strength.

    Thank goodness for those streams of waters and for roots that bring nourishment to our souls. I think He allows those stressful times to remind us of our utter dependence on Him. Take a nourishment time-out. That’s what I’m doing, and it’s long overdue.

    Blessings and prayers . . . DiAne

  2. No matter the troubles, always remember God never gives us more than we can handle. As a mom, I know the swirling you’re talking about. It’s overwhelming. Trust me, sometimes when I consider everything on my plate, I think God got me confused with someone else, but I soon discover He was right all along. I’m stronger than I give myself credit for, and so are you. You know I’m praying for you. You’ll be fine, love.

  3. Lynn Shoemate |

    Great article, Lori. Have you read or heard of the book The Rest of God by Mark Buchanan? I haven’t read it, but have had it recommended to me a couple of times recently. Most people do not know how to just rest. :)

    As you know, I cannot read anything any more without editing it. I think you mean “plant” instead of plan yourself. And in DiAne’s comment I think she means “halt” instead of “hault”. I couldn’t find the word “hault” in a dictionary. :)

  4. Once again, great article. I especially identified with a particular part – preparer and drive-thruer. That is so me, as well.

  5. First off, hugs. It can be challenging to pursue all the roles in our lives we play everyday, but God gives us the grace to do so, even if sometimes we don’t feel it. He’s there, holding you up. Take comfort in that and know he will never leave you. He loves you, just as your family does. Maybe back off some of the running around, explain to others you need a break. Take some rest and relaxation time and just feel that love wrap you like a blanket. Good luck.

  6. Lovely inspiration. Thanks!

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